Tit-bits for your break…

30th May 2007.

My happiest day ever experienced before!

So far so good. Went to Pelangi Plaza, met Agnes and her gang ready to tuition. Visited Popular Book Store afterward and bought my favourite author’s work — the Digital Fortress by Dan Brown, the most brilliant thriller writer. Anyway maybe some of you may think that I am not that keen to him as this book has been published for quite a long time already.

Went to CS later, hanging around there for few hours, and finally went to Danga Bay afterward, for another few hours. Ya, never forget to mention the "car-shopping" before going home.

Arrived home at 11.30pm.

Never ever been crazier than this day.

I won’t forget it.

The torturing mid-year exam has finally over! All hails!

To celebrate this, I together with Mei Ling, Fong Seem, Poh Heng, Chun Wei and A Very Hardworking Guy (Very sorry forgot your name… =P ) go for Pirates right after school! Wow! Really a great show! It talks about the Jack Sparrow doing…. Haha, I am not going to explore, go and watch!

After the show just go and hanging around in CS, but quite a memorable day to me…

By the way, it let me to think a lot…

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Good news to you Loong, I have really put it down. Now it no longer bother me. And finally I can release myself from sorrow.

Yea, it’s true, when you look something through, you may have the deepest and most profound knowledge. Someone has really impressed me for having everything perfect! To a stage that I can’t claim myself as a perfectionist, there’s imperfection with me!

Anyway this caused me to be released, and think of something really important. I should consider it wisely, and thoroughly, before anything can be confirmed.

A heavy decision is waiting for me to make.

I never believe in external motivation. So far there isn’t any motivation camp that really motivated me (Roslee’s motivations are exceptions, they motivated me to study hard during his speech). Maybe I am just immune to such thing…

Self-motivation would be the thing that I always rely on. It aids me on the path to achieve many things that I never expect I can achieve. And it would be the mere factor for me to carry out my responsibilities…

To my astonishment it disappeared lately, thoroughly, unexpectedly. Caused me to have no mood to sit for exam this time. The mood for examination is relatively important than anything else to get a good grade. And what happened to me is that none of it left in my mind during the chemistry paper… Haiz…

Even the maths too, no much mood to do it, and thanks to it I wrote 7 for 9 + 2, and forgot to put brackets to some equations (sure die…). Luckily the maths paper isn’t that hard as in imagination…

This playful mind kept bothering me until Sunday (yesterday), causing not much PA stuffs were revised. With the worry of failing PA paper on Monday (today), I forced myself to swallow as much as I could. But it won’t work, I knew. But a short message had changed my mind. It has really MOTIVATED me SUCCESSFULLY!

Never knew such a simple sentence with a few words could do it perfectly. There’s an unknown force behind it, I know. This force is strong, about 10 GN I think, irresistible, deep into my mind. And really thanks to it, the PA paper today is showing me how great the power is, and I need it for my further papers!

Okay, thank you for finish reading this long nonsense… My gratitude.

It’s over. Hopefully I can pass my chemistry paper…

Never had such thinking in my mind before. But this time, it’s really different. For the first time I can’t answer over 70% of the subjective paper. Moreover there are much more silly mistakes I made in the objective paper, eg. the B3+ ion is smaller than F- ion right? I did this wrongly also… T_T

Just don’t know why, I have no mood for examination this time, even a little. Maybe it’s caused by the entrance of the Lower Six students, busy dealing with them. Or maybe Wang Loong’s prediction is accurate, I am avoiding the problem but not getting rid of the problem. One more example: How much does 9 + 2 is? I wrote 7…

Now I can sure that my chemistry is really poor, the lousiest subject out of four of the taken subject. Really don’t know how can I improve it, perhaps there’s still enough time for me…

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今天一起身就发生了一件不常发生的事。。。

跟往常一样，时间一到四点半，手机就响了，通知我是时候起床了。为了方便，它每晚都睡在我身边，默默地为我服务。但今天。。。

它跳楼了。。。

。。。从床上掉了下来。由于手机还一直在响着，深怕吵醒家人的我，顺势一起掉下床，铆足全力把它从那痛苦的深渊里救出来。结果，今天的我异常精神。。。

然而，这似乎是个不祥的预兆。。。

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轮到我考英文口试，由于是Set 2，被排在十一点的第一组。也因此我们多了几个小时来进行最后的排练。跟昨天一样，排练时我还是结结巴巴的，有好多连三岁小孩都会的字，我竟然都想不到，头脑一片空白，只懂得一直看着建辉(Nicholas)。。。天啊！我该怎么办？突然有点开始后悔为什么不去补一补英文。。。

两轮失败的排练后（我罢了，他们都很好。。。），就休息了一下。但这休息像是错误的决定，大家都变得没有心情继续排练，于是，第三轮的排练沦落到了半途而废的地步。。。然而，不知是祸是福，我前天的问题就在这慌乱之中得到了解答。。。

我很不幸地。。。推理正确！！！

而且，这不是我观察的结果！若这是我所观察出来的或多或少总会有些许的失误，不能作为有力的证据。坏就坏在–

他向我下了战书。

一封间接的、无形的战书。

他也坦诚了，打算放弃自己的路，虽然没有明说，但我知道他打算走我的路，毕竟他一只脚已经踏了进来，并且在说完之后马上向我进行第一波攻势。。。

战役开始了。

我该反击吗？还是得退位让贤？毕竟到最后就算我赢得了战役也不见得会给人带来快乐，我的离开，或许对当事人来说，是个更完美的结局。就把我的出现，当作是你生命中的一段小插曲吧！或许，你也可以选择完全不在乎我的存在。

这是战役的开始，还是坚持的结束？

今天发生了一些事。。。

导致在学校老是心不在焉的。。。眼神老是注意着同样的方向，思考着同样的问题。。。

上个月的某一天，闲来没事做，又不想做功课，就在网上游了一下。游着游着又到了我常去的一听音乐网。无聊中点了我平时最不会去看的内地音乐排行榜。不知是否是天意，一看就给我看中了阿木一首现在非常红的歌，高居榜首。听着听着，我的手臂再一次有了冰凉的感觉，是汗水吗？不是，而是那久违了的泪水。顿时各种莫名其妙的感觉油然而生，心中一片凄凉。。。不过却领悟了些许哲理，想通了，令我开朗了不少。。。

随后由于校务事繁忙，渐渐地淡忘了这首歌。然而，随着一位好友的好意，我又与这首歌打了交道。想起了种种的不愉快，但我却秉持着当事人所提的“平常心”，算是安详地避过了伤感的拜访。然而，今天的事让我失去了闪躲的能力。伤感，我被你暗算了。。。

今天的物理实验不是我要说，根本就是简单的，因此多了不少闲暇时间。闲暇时我可还是不闲，还是被同学叫来叫去的。。。本着助人为快乐之本，忙碌中还挺快乐的。然而，有一叫，却让我又回到了一大早的心情–伤。看到了也许我不该看的事情。我不相信我所看到的，毕竟从远方的推测不是准确的。于是，藉着一些理由，我上前去确认了一下。。。

震惊。。。

我之前的忧虑（没在部落格发表过，别乱猜），竟然是正确的！

他转移了目标。。。

顿时，吵杂的实验室对我来说是一片寂静，感知上那儿只有我们三人。我一直保持清醒明确的脑袋，顿时浑沌不堪！脑里直想：“道不同不相为谋，我与你井水不犯河水，为何你现在要挡在我前面？一双腿走一条路就好，为何一双脚要踏在两条路上，而且还是我的那条？还是你想完全跳过来，放弃自己的，来抢走我的路吗？！”

或许我不适合走这条路，但你要知道你已经有一条路了就不要来抢我的，一双脚走两条路不辛苦吗？而你也想想你放弃的那条路，它会伤心吗？

或许我误会了你，或许我误解了你的行动，但，我真的希望我是真的误会了你。我不希望我这精明的推理头脑在这件事上还是正确的。如果我还是真的那么不幸运地推理正确。。。。。。

君子成人之美，不成人之恶。而我，该做君子吗？还是得自私些，把你轰回去？

Attended Tzu Chi’s charity dinner on Friday. Just found out that it had been one year since the last time I took part in the monthly recycling activity… Feeling very sorry to all of my seniors…

This is the second time I attend Tzu Chi’s charity dinner. Of course, the dinner is themed on vegetarian and I really enjoyed it… Anyway, I still have to say that last year’s dishes tasted better…

Enough nonsense, as usual, a talk will be given to us by the highest (seniority) senior. We were first introduced with the history of this charity organisation, and later with some meaningful philopsophies. Can anyone imagine a giant charity organisation was started in Taiwan with only 50 cents at the very beginning? How it’s founder managed to achieve this? It’s a long story… And I think I am not going to type it here… But there’s a link that can be explored for more details, hope it benefits its visitors. www.daai.com.my

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Forced to take part in walkaton on Saturday. This is the FIRST time ever for me to run around SSI (As I was hiding in the gym all the time during every practice… Table tennis has interested me more…). It’s really… tiring… The route is beyond my expectation, it’s far more longer than our previous Larian Mutiara… For so long I didn’t start the engine of my 11-bus, I end-up to be the 189th… Luckily not the last of form six, but together with a tough 100m runner, Ah Lian, clearly he’s not the type for marathon (So as me… :-P).

Surprisingly I didn’t feel any tiredness after the whole journey, just the blazing sun annoyed me. Anyway I shouldn’t complain anything since there are some who were more pity than me - the assigned St. John members. Really felt sorry to all of them, standing for so long under the unmercy sun, arigato! (Although we all know the real intention isn’t duty…)

Since I felt no tiredness after the whole run, I went for badminton that afternoon. For so long I left my racket in my bag, finally there’s a chance for it to inhale fresh oxygen. An hour of playing has finally worn me out. But it seemed not enough, then we went for a game of pool. Again, that’s my first time. Quite embarrassed with my poor skill… The white ball kept on flying here and there! Ha, maybe it’s time for me to train for something new…

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All this seems relaxing, but it’s required to be paid. Finally I ended up with tonnes of undone homeworks… T_T

Got to finish them!!!

Ahhh… Finally a break for me to update my blog…

Just finished taking the ridiculous MUET last week. The paper is unexpectedly hard… Comprehension is okay, the same goes with the listening paper, but the writing paper… Aaaaa!!! To my astonishment the summary is out of my expectation! Before this it’s easy for me to catch at least five points in the first reading, but this time… ONE!!! Merely one point that I could figure out! And it ends up taking my precious one hour plus to finish it off… Then my essay… die… Twenty minutes to finish an essay, how good it can be? I can tell, THAT IS THE WORST ESSAY I EVER WROTE THIS YEAR! I think I am going to retake my MUET, anyone who is willing to lend me fifty ringgit?

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Recent spirit is encouraging! Farewell to tiredness and discouraging soul. Now I am feeling energetic and quite happy lately! I don’t the reason anyway… But who cares?! Now I am empowered and ready for more challenges! Bring it on, exam! Bring it on, any trouble! You are not the match of mine! Haha! (Seems like too proud… :-p )