No more pain now.
I have thought thoroughly.
You may be a fan of another but you cannot expect another be the fan of you.
It’s true, and simple. I am wondering why I just figured out this easy theory so late.
Therefore, as a loyal fan of you, I wish you all the best.
And of course, farewell to my dear friends name "pain", "lost", "confuse" for accompanying me during my gloomy days…
Regards,
W-TCP-SL
Attending MUET test this saturday. Really can’t imagine how bad I am…
I was thinking that I can handle this test without any tuition before this. But the truth tells me that it isn’t. Erm… Comprehension is okay to me, but the worst is my essay… I got only band one in my last exercise… aaarrr….. how I pass through this saturday… Now I start to regret why I didn’t follow Pn. Zainariah’s says: "Why don’t you join my class? At least you can practice for a better performance."
Haiz, why don’t I…
明天，将有一个解决我问题的机会来临。我等待已久的机会，终于在不经意间产生了。原本这不是个机会，而是个令人吃力不讨好的危机，但，昨日的一个小插曲让我找到把危机化为转机的方法：“我看到了！”
真期待明天的到来。。。
Heard someone said before: "Things that you can’t see perfectly are the things behind you." This is true, especially for those which are perfectly perpendicular with the surface of your back.
And they are probably the most mysterious things to you, since you can’t even see them. Yet the worst thing is that, you know they are behind you, you are so eager to have a look on them, but you just can’t! You can’t see, hence you can’t know, at last you lose contact with them. Torturing.
And I, has partially lose for few months, and now, almost completely… Haiz…
最近心情越来越不好了。。。
昨天还活在一片自我猜疑当中，到底我该继续坚持，还是选择放弃？缺乏明确的证据，这一切都属于无法预测的变数。以至，一直到今天清晨，依然以坚持不移的信念继续试探中。。。
今天，一个不经意的错手使得一切变数都化为了乌有。。。
隐约中推测了一直以来找寻的答案。。。
而结果似乎非常不乐观。。。
仅存的最后一点坚持，不知会反弹回升，还是永远离去？
四月二十八号快到了，这坚持，最多也只能到那一天吧。结果如何、推测正确与否，到了那天也就会有个决定性的答案。。。
无论如何，不到那天，坚持就一定会存在，纵管伤痛已甚。。。
只希望那天永远都不要来。。。
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嘻嘻，没人看得懂我昨天写的吧。。。
一三她六绪乐吧九二五八一三五七九一三五
二四上七思欢了十三六九二四六八十二四六
际五不八此来似一四七十福了痛慕一到来芳
天察配近彼带相感拔立何幸乐有爱一找未群
炫观乎相白她太鲜自确如心快会与隔够的亮
纷的似格明为是新法经论开很免欢之能乐质
缤列我性似法就了无已无她就难喜线她快丽
丽系现然貌无许乏已觉在要里然赏一愿个珑
彩一发虽也却或缺但感现只心虽欣就但一玲
一篇懂的看得不懂就看不必意反也不人看啊
这看得人就懂看的人不懂太在正我想让出来
Feeling lost lately… It is not the physical lost, eg. lost in jungle, but the psychological lost…
Everyday seems doing the same things, over and over. Keeping myself busy everyday seems to be effective to cure my low morale before this. Effort made to cut water is a waste, but somehow I am trying to cut it off. Keeping our distance is constant at a certain value, perhaps, this is the best solution.
May time perfects the cure…
A song that I quite like lately…
http://wma.1ting.com/wmam/zzzfuck0O6/2006TdEc/15j_GiGi/1.wma
It has been twelve days since my last post. Ah… For a keen blogger like me (Not really…), it’s really annoying to see my calender is not assigned with a post. Haiz…
Attending second IPhO training last week. Me, Wei Chong, Yi Sow and Zack are the only four participants from Johor for this second camp. Really feeling sad for friends who are not so lucky to be able to enter this second camp… But actually there’s six of us initially, apart of four of us, another one is Wei Chong (weird right? Well… he’s Tan Wei Chong from EC…) who has chosen to attend his debate competition (He got the first runner-up of it!) and another guy from Batu Pahat, but I not really not what’s going on with him/her (I don’t know even his/her gender…).
This second camp is held at Port Dickson. It should be fun initially, but due to some unknown reasons, the venue changed. We should be attending this course at a high standard resort named Coral or Corale (whatever), but after all we ended up to be in a normal resort. No very beautiful scenery for us to enjoy, nor any amusement. Luckily there’s a swimming pool…
Enough nonsense, this time I am totally out. Many new theories and equations that I never heard before! But still feeling excited to learn more, perhaps there’s some uses for me. And about the test after all of the lectures… I am out… Out of 50 objective questions I have only done 20… T_T So I am very sure I will be not in the shortlist of the next camp… T_T
Anyway, learnt some useful techniques, like the standardised techniques of plotting graph, and most importantly the special theory of relativity, although I am still very blurred with it… Maybe I should work harder…
But after all, again… Tonnes of homeworks are smashing my head! The accumulated mathematics, physics and PA’s work is uncountable… Ha, got to stop, still many of them awaiting my present…
