Tit-bits for your break…

Today is the last day of our torturing exam. However, today’s PA is really… sucks. Got tonnes of questions of it smashed my head hard, and I just simply don’t know how to do… Got lots of unlearnt things, like what the "graf memesong" , "confusing table analysis" and more. Moreover, my essay is gone… Too happy in writing has caused me to write four hundred plus words… Haiz, two points are gone…

And when I was writing my essay in the last 30 minutes (I put essay as my last answered question), Mr Chang walked to me. To my surprise he asked me, "You are Park Soon right?" ( T_T What the hell, for so long we are in a same school and he still don’t know me at all…). Anyway, his next sentence has excited me, "You are qualified for the second phase of IPhO training, for more information just call Mr. Chew."

I was shocked. Before this we were still predicting whether we have already disqualified or something, since we didn’t even receive any news from the organiser. But this, really, banged my head. Excited!

But… I was writing essay… After he walked away I just simply had my mind blank… All the ideas are gone… Waaa…. There’s only 20 minutes left… What can I do???? So I just simply wrote any nonsense that I can think for, but after all it results in not enough points…

I think I should never put the essay as my last item next time…

Is this news brings pros, or cons?

Theory: "The work you have done is directly proportional to your success".

Now I know the importance of hard work. This exam really taught me a lot. Suddenly I felt that my work is still not enough…

Really, the moment I open my test paper, I was shocked. To my astonishment I don’t even know what are they asking about. Sadly, I can just try to unleash my "arguing" skill, try to relate any irrelevant theory to my answers… The result? I don’t wish to know…

Haiz… Maybe more work has to be done, to increase my potential energy…

Compatibility. An abstract matter that cannot be seen, but requires high imagination to feel it.

Anyway, although it isn’t a physical thing, and we cannot describe it in a physics way, we cannot define it as spectator substance in our life. It does, after all, affect our life mentally, even physically. The simplest way to prove this will the the compatibility of software. It’s a day-dream to run a Macintosh-based software in Windows (even we can run a Win version of Mac software in Windows, it is not Mac-based anymore). Hence, compatibility is highly important in every field, eg. technology, science, astrology and even the relationships of humankind!

Well, back to the topic. I just found that compatibility can be divided into two regions. The first is the compatibility of you to another, and the second, of course, is the compatibility of the other to you (seems like nonsense huh?), which is total different. Anything will be perfect if and only if it satisfied both of the rules. Once there’s one of it isn’t fulfilled, no more perfect will be obtained, but failure. So, even there’s someone compatible for you, but you are not compatible for the person, both of you won’t be close.

It’s a reality, and everyone has to face it…

一直在想，这人为什么那么喜欢谣言？

不停思考，这人若没有谣言甭过日子？

连续探讨，这人难不成非得置人于死？

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谣言之兴起，皆为小人之不义。为者，始于嬉，终于恶。受者皆无得益。旁者若怀关系若干，亦遭扯入，沦为涉者。涉者，则终于分道扬镳，是以避。哀哉！

现在才发现到时间实在是不够用，每天做那乱七八糟的功课就够忙的了。现在接近考试了，那一星期的“假期”根本就是折磨。在加上班上那一大堆要处理的公务，真希望我会分身术。之前一天还能腾出两三个小时来玩，现在几乎是从早忙到晚，礼拜天也不放过，在下去我真的会疯掉。。。

不过，这忙碌的生活令我愉快了很多。可以说是自我麻醉吧！每当专心的忙起一件事时，之前的伤感就被抛到九霄云外了。虽然每天还是会触景而想起来，但疲乏的身心已经让我无力去想那么多了。也许，我会放弃我的执著吧！也许，我的承诺会落空吧！机会已失去，朋友也失去，但愿悲伤也会随之而去。但我心里明白，我当初的决定是对的；而这最后的结果，希望不要来临。。。

It has been almost a month since my last post. Really busy doing homework. The crazy GTH gives at least one exercise a day, with at least ten questions each. We got his class everyday, so five times ten equals to fifty (Too many maths class made me see everything as mathematics…). Fifty confusing yet disgusting mathematics questions! Where’s the time for me to update this blog?

Anyway, the main reason isn’t this. Even I have no time I will force myself to "have" time to write blog, since here’s the only place for me to air my grievances. In fact, nothing to be written is the main point. As I stated in my last entry, I had wished that the incident will be ended in that week. However, something unexpected occurred. It really gave me a shock. Thanks to the carelessness of a friend in EC, my plan was spoiled. Totally. And this led to the end which I had predicted — I have lost a friend, more specifically, a close friend, spiritually.

This is not surprising. And I had tried my best to put it down, try to not bother of it. It’s really hard to do it perfectly, but I manage to do it as much as I can (Maybe this is why I am so busy lately, busy lifestyle really can paralyze one’s feeling…). Therefore, we almost lost contact to each other. Although we are so close in physical distance, we are far apart spiritually, acting like strangers. However, I don’t even know whether this is right? Any better way for me?

I don’t know…

What I know is merely…

I lost a friend.