Tit-bits for your break…

It’s far more messy than what had I thought. MP’s problem left only the last few money to be collected (quite a lot too) and the bless of god is highly required, hoping that no more obstacles to be met.

But another trouble seems… not worsen really. I just simply… can’t figure out what’s the key person thinks of. The attitude towards me is quite okay, and even explained the reason of bad attitude to me for the past few days. I am happy for this, really. But somehow something strike my head. The actions of both of them… just made me felt hurt. Now… It’s complicated… But better situation than what had I predicted. Phew…

Today will be the last day of the suffering holidays. And tomorrow will be a refreshing day for me. Since it is a school day, many problems of mine will have at least a little advancement.

Problems of our MP are generally settled. Just left the most important part have to be solved. Maybe this is as what the proverb says, “万事俱备，只欠东风”. But anyway this "Eastern Wind" seems will not come easily. However I think we can handle it, so good luck to us…

I should be happy with this progress, it raised my "Happiness Index" about 25%. But sadly my trouble of feeling has been worsen (Happiness Index reduced 100%). My intuition never been so accurate (to most things). Anyway what have I predicted is true. I am the one who suffering the sadness and gloom now, but they, however, didn’t know anything yet. They didn’t do anything that hurt me ‘together’. And I don’t think they have planned well to do so. Just the key person’s attitude to me is a little harsh lately, maybe the key person’s part time job causes this, I know. So I didn’t blame the key person, just feeling a little hurt. I will manage to recover this, I must, at least. But have to depend on the situation, if I do it on the wrong time, I can imagine what will happen. The worsening of friendship? I think not. The lost of friendship will be more suitable. Haiz…

Oh my goodness a week has gone but my trouble seems to be heavier! First is the problem among three of us. Still don’t have any perfect solution to handle it. The best way now, however, will cause one of us feeling terrible and the rest feeling guilty. This is not what I want, but is there any better way? I am not the fishmonger in the market so I am not selfish(Any fishmonger please don’t be offended), although I may most possible to be the one who feeling bad, but I don’t wish anyone be hurt in this scenario, I want a happy ending, is it really that hard?

The second trouble that almost crushed me these days is the coming MP on next Tuesday. As a treasurer what hit my head is the financial problem. Still many friends haven’t play their role to support what they really have to. Around 60 of them… What should I do…

So long my holidays seems to be terrible, no time to rest, so as Nicholas. Hoping that our plan will go smooth and successful. Or I will just burst… AAHHhhhhh…

3 days already… I still can’t figure out a perfect solution to solve the problem among three of us. Maybe my foresight caused me this trouble. I shouldn’t take note of this crisis, should I? I think both of them haven’t noticed this trouble yet, they are still enjoying their holiday life, leaving me to figure out the whole thing alone. Did I think too much? Shouldn’t I solve it before it really happen? No, I am right, what am I doing will aid in the future. At least we can still maintain the situation now and prevent it from worsening.

Anyway, I am still confused now…

Thinking of something serious lately. To my astonishment it is not the academic status that always in my mind before this, but something else concerning my future, and another’s future.

Never knew that there is something more important than academic to me, and it is far more complicated than anything that I ever met, as it isn’t a thing that involved only myself, but two more friends…

This time I have really beaten up. Now I have finally experienced the difficulty to track someone’s feeling, and also the feeling of the person who is related closely to him/her. I am not willing to lose, nor wish to win in this scenario. I just want to know am I one of the selections although I know my limits. If it is positive then everything is fine, otherwise I think there will be a blue period for me, maybe a day, a week, a month, or even worse. So I have tried my best, even what had I done isn’t so good. Should I take another step forward, or waiting for the person to give me some hints?

Nothing more will make me so happy(not sure for the future…), let me announce: "OUR CRUEL YET TORTURING EXAMINATION HAS FINALLY ENDED!!!". This is really a good news to all of the Form 6 students like me, anyone who disagree with this can post your precious comments and we’ll see.

Well, after this will be the 9-days holiday and later on is our MP for PERTINA. Anyone who is interested to join this festive can kindly hand in a reasonable fee of RM50.00 to your class monitor or our treasurer. You have to, however, pay RM30.00 for the MP next year if you are counted out…

Foo… Finally the examination is going to be history, just left one paper on Monday. This time will be the most miserable exam I ever faced. I never ever let my answer sheet to be blank, clean and tidy but it happened this time. I really can’t understand why I has become like this!!! Anyway, this exam has totally worn me out. Well, I think this 9-days holiday is going to compensate what had I lost this two weeks… Everybody enjoy!!!

At last, I finally found that I am the kind who hate exam very much. For the first time I feel the pain of exam and for the first time I calculate my marks with a target of "pass"… Foo, terrible… I think I am quite a crazy man too… Finish 6 studied chapters and 7 fresh chapters of physics in a day, and finish memorize an abundance of annoying laws in General Paper in the following day… What happened next? Terrible effort during exam… So, anyone want to try this like me? Anyway, everything has returned to normal now…